So, thanks to some friends at work, I've backslid into one of my most hated addictions, the duel monsters card game from the Yu-gi-oh! tv series. I've picked it up and dropped it about once every two or three years ever since middle school. I'll pick it up again, get into it, get frustrated, and drop it again. Luckily, I'm using a free online game this time, so I haven't wasted any money, but man is this game a killer. As usual, there's two or three "top tier" decks that EVERYONE uses, and as usual I refuse to use them out of protest. But, that's a recipe for disappointment and frustration, especially since I feel like this time there are no decks out right now that I really enjoy using. I get very depressed if I lose a lot of games in a row, which I usually do every day, and my wins always feel pretty hollow. This game is just all around bad for me.
But by far the worst thing is that yugioh kills my ability to write. The anime (which I've picked up again) is not well written or inspiring for anything outside of the card game, and I've lost almost all interest in Decadent and Depraved, and I hate that. I really hate it, because I love that story, and I wanted so badly to finish it, but now I have no desire to work on it. I think I need some sort of support group to get out of this stupid, depressing game. Can somebody help me? I'm in terrible pain right now and need a friend.